estherisms

estheryang @ 2006-04-11T14:08:00

2006-04-11T06:14:44Z

as you can see, i am blogging so often because i feel so bored studying. eww

ok last night a friend and i (tried to) bring 2 older people out for dinner.sort of like to show our appreciation for them. BUT old pple being OLDER, refused to let us pay so we ended up getting a free meal. Which was cool. GOOD THING we bought gifts for them haha. or else so FAIL hor.

anyhoo, these pple were our producers for the 2nd staging of r&h at the artshouse. One of them is Kenneth Lyen, a paediatrician (did i spell it right???!!!) at Mt E. he's been in the musical theatre business for yonks and hes extremely literate when it comes to musical theatre both broadway and off broadway. it was really nice just sitting down and talking to him cos, first he's OLD. and old pple have tonnes of experience and knowledge which only comes with age. yes haha
hes like a grandfatherly figure.. i think hes about 50ish 60?? yes he works with retarded kids (pardon my unPCness) so he was telling that his profession has actually allowed him to gain so much human experience, and that's what really inspires.

Everyone is born with the urge to create. so to all those pple (the LEGIONS of PEOPLE WHO READ THIS BLOG HAGHAHAAHAHAH) who often give the excuse that you are not creative, plus go and wash your mouth with listerine because ITS NOT TRUE!!! God created man in His image, and God is a creator, and we too, have been created with the urge to create. Creating is one of my raison pour vivre, i cannot imagine being a whole/healthy person without creativity.

yesh ok so i just needed to get that bit of random, incoherent information out of my system. TA!

estheryang @ 2006-04-10T10:02:00

2006-04-10T02:03:52Z

wah piang just came back from breakfast with mel
ate at this place in siglap called makan makan its opp siglap centre.
sell malay food. Let me warn all (the 1 million readers who read my blog) that the food is AWFUL.
i bit into a ROCK or something like that. yuckksss

anyway its just under 3 weeks till my last paper. yikes and yipee!
im so relaxed man. so relaxed till i feel abit stressed with myself. HAHA!
ok lah talking nonsense. i never sleep last night cos i studying. Im all raring to go again!!!!
I LOVE STUDYING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! not.

estheryang @ 2006-04-09T12:42:00

2006-04-09T04:49:16Z

i need to plan my day
every night, i'll spend about 20 minutes planning the next day and making fone calls to confirm appointments etc.
and only if i have nice long stretches of time, i'll do spontaneous stuff. otherwise most of the things i do, are planned.
So when someone upsets the plan, they naturally upset me. i dislike, no, Hate when my time is wasted by someone else. i can waste my own time, but no one can. haha.yes yes i know my time is not really my own but God's.. but you gut my drift lah. if i only physically have 1 hour for lunch, if you take 40 minutes deciding where to go or wasting time by talking to other pple etcetc. then i only have 20 min left. well yes that happened today. Time Waster!

but of course that's not the half of it. the time waster is also a take-for-granted-er. what a wonderful combi.

ok i have a paper in approx 12 days. i need to study.

estheryang @ 2006-04-06T13:36:00

2006-04-06T05:34:48Z

ok. i have a confession to make. i read xiaxue's blog. eeeeeeee so paiseh right.
anyway i'd usually never discuss this here (or anywhere else for the matter), but i think shes crazy.
she's mad, she truly is. she gets so worked up and then spends an incredible amount of time and effort writing these hate entries about individuals or collective groups of people she doesnt like. she's gng to get old quickly. hehe

ok anyway thats that. haha now all of you know my darkest and most horrible secret.

estheryang @ 2006-04-05T13:03:00

2006-04-05T05:05:00Z

my life is turning into something quite exciting.
sometime back i went for an SRT audition
general auditions for their different productions in 2006-2007
i just went to get experience and also to try try lah. nothing to lose mah
so that was like in feb. and i didnt hear from them for the whole of march
so i presumed that they'd chosen who they wanted and i didnt get selected
so it was cool
till yesterday
i got an email from srt inviting me back for 2nd round auditions for
FORBIDDEN CITY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! the musical. OmyGOSH
its a dance call back so ill have to sing and dance. haha ME DANCE??!!
anyway to add to the excitement, its on the same day as my exam. at the same time.
so i called in and the srt pple want me to come dwn after my paper.
wah liew.
i just think this is the opportunity of a lifetime.
thank you God.

uninspired

2006-03-30T03:33:26Z

hmm so the show on sunday went well. thank God for that
we also got some interested buyers. Thank God for that too
theatreworks and this guy called jeremiah choy. whos like a producer. and is cool
anyway with all the congratulations and well dones flying around, it was kinda hard for me to figure who really meant it and who didnt.
oh no am i turning into a skeptic. wait dont answer that
anyway i felt really blase after the show. like nothing really happened.
no feelings of euphoria like the last time
no sadness that the experience was ok
luke attributes it to the fact that this time round, we werent creating a show, we created a deformity, a sick commercial deformity
ah well.
but seriously, it was hard rehearsing without a goal/a cause in mind
i think next time v hard for me to do commercial theatre. sure no inspiration.

eeeee.

ON the brighter side!
my europe trip is almost ALLLL firmed up. eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee so exciting
we booked most of our accomodation. cept stupid rome.
and we have our flight there and back
arrghh
and we're going to westend
in london
how amazing is thattttt

estheryang @ 2006-03-22T01:02:00

2006-03-21T17:02:34Z

this week is so not gng well for me

anyway tnite i got another dose of yuckiness.

you know sometimes you just call someone up to whine. and all you need is for the other person to (pretend also can) to sympathise with you, encourage you a little and set you on your way. Well. there are some friends who seem Dont seem to know that. they harp on what you're doing wrong and dont focus on the immediate problems at hand. and in the midst of their HARPING, they create entirely new problems for you. man, YUCKS.

AWESOME EH

2006-03-21T08:49:16Z

so yesterday was another one of those weird days. ive been having too many of those.
first. i got up late. i was supposed to get up early to do my work. then i got into a minor squabble with a friend. and felt bad.
secondly. i had an accident. now, hold your horses. to those who know me well and my driving history. you may think. WL she get into so many accidents so lousy. BUT ill tell you this: NOT NOTNOTNOTNTONTONTONONOTNOTNOTNOTN my fault. i was waiting patiently at a red light, STATIONARY mind you, when a BLERDY taxi rammed me from the back. Awesome eh. so the trunks really dented and stuff. the taxi man was really apologetic and offered to pay for everything so that was cool. he even loaned me his personal car for my use during the interim repair period. Awesome eh.
So. having just strapped the creaking boot back down, i had to drive my car around yesterday with it semi flapping around. Awesome eh.
then i went to do soome errands at katong shopping centre. at my printers. and i left my laptop there. cos by then i was reduced to a floundering bundle of nerves. one who needed about a kg of chocolate to stabilise. anyway. thank God for good men. my printer kept it there for me and i had to go back and get it. but of course NOT WITHOUT first getting drenched in the weird thunderstorm that magically began as i took first steps out of a building into the open air. Awesome eh.
then i proceeded to go for rehearsals which lasted till 10. and i dint have dinner till 11 plus.

hahah what a day. AWESOME EH!!!

psj

2006-03-20T06:11:16Z

psj
pre show jitters
countdown
5 days to show time
too nervous
got stomachache
need to finish assignment
delirious
stomachache
to all those who watched my show in sept: disregard the advert
but to all those who MISSED it by some chance
can watch again! but a slightly different version lah
tix going at 20 bux, pls Call the Artshouse ticketing box office: 63326919
to book now
date: 26th March Sunday
Venue: Artshouse
Matter: its a double bill. meaning another musical will be performed with our show.
ps its the very very last time this script will be performed to a public audience.
cos i think we're gng to kill this version and write a completely new one after this.
ok
nervous
got stomachache
cya guys

estheryang @ 2006-03-18T23:05:00

2006-03-18T15:20:12Z

this week i heard disturbing news. the nature of which, i cannot reveal on this blog. but what you do... when a friend of yours is hurting another friend of yours? and every one's all from the same group of friends. ugh am i making sense?

so anyway one friend in the group, P, is trying to murder/kill/do in (I exaggerate but you get the drift) another friend A. i am both good friends with P and A, and P and A are working on a.. well a project together. So A has come out and told me about P's somewhat psychotic behaviour and it has been confirmed with her other.. project mates. aii... i am in a dilemma. because i can try and compartmentalise my feelings insofar as they do not concern me. but loyalty screws things up sometimes huh. i dont hate P, but i am in a fix about her. She's still a friend. who probably has some sort of problem. and i havent heard her side. so. ehh.. hmm.

***

OK. i just re-read the above paragraph. it quite confusingly written. aiyah i am confused what. anyway if you dont know what im referring to, then dont bother lah, not very important. heh. i have a crazy-elephant headache and a heart thats thumping really quickly cos i overdosed on caffeine. but. alas i have a blerdy long night ahead of me. and a blerdy 'orrible assignment to complete. so excuse the ranting. (i can go on and on by the way. mel will attest to that). argharghargh.

ps. you know, today i was talking to grace, and i realised something. Sometimes people just need a listening ear, not a counselling ear. Ears werent made for the purpose of talking and talking, but just for listening. and when people are upset, sometimes the best form of sympathy/care/show of support comes in form of a listening ear. So the next time we meet someone who's down, listen to their struggles before offering ANY form of counselling/moral advice. Yes. Let's.

estheryang @ 2006-03-16T13:35:00

2006-03-16T05:33:59Z

there are some people in this world who i just cant get along with. One particular person that has crossed paths with me (again) is just so damn.. i dont know what. he makes me feel really lousy about who i am and he obnoxious and childish. yucks. i just had to get it out of me.

estheryang @ 2006-03-04T02:10:00

2006-03-03T18:41:02Z

dear diary,

There are certain things in life that bring great satisfaction. For example, getting a call from your primary six tuition kid in the middle of dinner telling you that for the first time in a long while, she did well in her maths test. ("Teacher Esther, i win a lot of people that last time everytime win me wan leh"). The pride evident in her little husky voice - priceless. The knowledge that you had a part to play in her success - invaluable.

Other things, like watching a movie you intially DIDNT want to watch and realising afterward that it was possibly the best show you've seen in the last 6 months. (Please watch Capote, it is so excellent.) The satisfaction of knowing that your boyfriend is not the only person in the world who pays $9.50 for a movie ticket and sleeps 3 quarter of the time. (the snoring from the row behind us was deafening).

And then there are things like, watching a group of people (as varied as a group of people can possibly be) coming together and gelling. Caring and growing closer to one another everytime they meet. Recogising each other's cars in parking lots and leaving little notes of acknowledgment.

Finally, there are things like knowing you have great and wonderful friends who will go out of their way for you. Who are loyal and loving, kind and kindred. who'd insist you take the bed in their hall room where you are a guest, who support you at every show/performance you do/give. And also having a family, that i know says a prayer for me at every meal at that i'm not present at.

Satisfaction is never factual or objective. Any situation can be a satisfactory one, its all a matter of perspective.

estheryang @ 2006-02-20T10:26:00

2006-02-20T02:28:28Z

Dear grace,

Sorry i have been so MIA.. but the month has been unbelievably crazy. im doing a restaging of my musical because some one from the musical theatre society picked it up. so rehearsals are 3 times a week. but thats no excuse :( anyway im really glad for you. you're graduating! this is your dream isnt it? im so proud of you, for coming this far. its really not the end, maybe it's only the end of the beginning of your career. i pray that you'll touch many many lives and win many best teacher awards! hee hee. anyway i just wanted to tell you i miss you too. and i keep telling everyone i wish you'd come back. Church is not the same without you. some how.

Love,
you most long time friend (i think)
es

estheryang @ 2006-02-11T19:00:00

2006-02-11T11:01:51Z

there are some people who should change, but dont

there are some who want to change but cant

there are some who change but dont know

there are some things that should change but just dont. either.

i feel like giving up.

estheryang @ 2006-02-05T23:46:00

2006-02-05T15:56:07Z

A poem about the new year.

jan passed, too quickly

cny came and went, too quickly

i turned 23, too quickly

i ate too much, too quickly

and got a stomachache.

the end.

thankyer to all those lovely peeps who got my gifts. my fambly. and some friends jolin/kenn, kel/es, soojin/van, lukey pukey (for the extremely thoughtful gift) a. lena for the pretty jewellry, ben (and ivan i think?) and to others i may have missed out, xiexie. oh yes and mel who spent lots of time w me. (good enough, Ha ha.)

im officially in love w my ibook. its so damn user friendly. i love mac i love mac i love mac

this week packed to max

Monday: class til 1, meeting w luke till forever
Tues: No class, must bake
Wed: class till 6, watching long house at esplanade at 8
thurs: Class till 6, play reading at next stage acad till 9pm
fri: class til 3, wine and cheese and screening @ dawn's place
Sat: e comm meeting at 10, cell group, then amy's place till LATE!!
sunday: church, lunch with linda and girls, dinner with daddys friend.

WAHH. so to everyone who reads you will know where i am in the week. so if i dont pick up your call, you'll know why. so busy. jin cham.

estheryang @ 2006-01-14T11:58:00

2006-01-14T04:01:33Z

ok today i realised that i have a couple of friends who have added me, but im not quite sure who you guys are because theres no name on your user infos! so could you guys give me a couple of shouts outs just to introduce yourselves :P .. sekali you guys are pple i already know or something. right, im off to haul myself out of bed and start the other half of the day. Toodles!

estheryang @ 2006-01-11T13:46:00

2006-01-11T05:48:04Z

hullo dear all. i am posting this entry from my new ibook. Mei mei!!! i got a Mac! hehehe. and a shuffle free as well. early bday present from my loving parents. am lovin' it. getting used to all the organizational features. i need to get some protective covers or something. the whiteness is driving me nuts. ok must rush off to tuition now then school. tata to all!!! long live mac!

estheryang @ 2006-01-08T02:15:00

2006-01-07T18:15:05Z

testing. something wrong with my login., weirddddddddddddddddd. all the anon comments. its me.

estheryang @ 2006-01-06T02:02:00

2006-01-05T18:18:04Z

hullo everyone (aka maybe the 3 pple who read this) happy new year!

its 2006. feels surreal. like im in the FUTURE. weeeiirrd
any way we rang in the new year on a pretty low note. watching tv and bumming.
it was my 5th annv. w mel, bt we spent the day like any other day. going shopping and doing errands. which was pretty profound. cos it meant that we'd gone beyond celebrating once a year to recognising that there were many more years to come. hehe.

1st of jan, ate at Wild Rocket @ mt emily. luverly little place owned by ex lawyer turned chef willin Low. really nice chap who came out to chat with us for a bit. food was slightly above average but i was taken with the way the restaurant was managed, the location, and the guts it must have taken to quit the legal profession so young (he is young. maybe early 30s?)

good stuff.

anyway im glad i got to chat abit w Grace (*hi grace! wave!*) on sunday. i miss you. come back!

ok ive got wake up super early tomorrow to wake melvin up for breakfast at 720. eeps.

oh oh before i forget:

ausssssie aussie ausssieeeeeeeeee!
my sister is in australia, melbourne for 2 weeks
hannah and pamela are there for 2 weeks
chris is leaving on sunday for Perth, then sydney. i think
then my parents are going to australia to meet my sis
then emma is leaving for australia
then my brother is leaving (+plus my parents again+)for uni in sydney
then i think i might be gng down in may with my strawberry club pple.

ok now i really have to sleep. here's ending this frightful unstructured random and absolutely ridiculous entry with a song to match:
(ps its the song that fann wong sang at the countdown sky symphony thingy and it was HORRIBLE. but cannot blame lah seeing that faye wong did SUCH a bad job o writing it in the first place. ITS NASSSSTYYY):

pps: no typos. i cut and paste. and fann wong really sang it like that, bad grammar et al. HAHAH. i'm diggin' it.

Eyes On Me
Faye Wong

Whenever sang my songs
On the stage, on my own
Whenever sad my words
Wishing they would be heard
I saw you smiling at me
Was it real or just my fantasy
You'd always be there in the corner
Of this tiny little bar

My last night here for you
Same old songs, just once more
My last night here with you?
Maybe yes, maybe no
I kind of liked it your your way
How you shyly placed your eyes on me
h, did you ever know?
That I had mine on you

*Darling, so there you are
With that look on your face
As if you're never hurt
As if you're never down
Shall I be the one for you
Who pinches you softly but sure
If frown is shown then
I will know that you are no dreamer

So let me come to you
Close as I wanted to be
Close enough for me
To feel your heart beating fast
And stay there as I whisper
How I loved your peaceful eyes on me
Did you ever know
That I had mine on you

Darling, so share with me
Your love if you have enough
Your tears if you're holding back
Or pain if that's what it is
How can I let you know
I'm more than the dress and the voice
Just reach me out then
You will know that you're not dreaming

estheryang @ 2005-12-01T04:06:00

2005-11-30T20:11:03Z

may i just say that...

RENT IS
SUPER_DUPER_
GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOD

sound system was off lah

but i dont factor that in my analysis of a good piece of art

its the potential that matters

it was absolutely...

cant describe it. took my breath away.

karen mok was not very good.

but nevertheless, THE SHOW WAS SOOOOOOOO GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

everything about it was coherent

everything that wasnt prima facie coherent, was incoherent for artistic reasons.

amazing stuff.

ok peace out pple. its 4.11 am and im not asleep

estheryang @ 2005-11-28T03:20:00

2005-11-27T19:36:09Z

Dear all, (all being pple who read and esp the sweethearts that comment)

its currently 3.20 am and i am barely half done. I dont mean to rant, but i think this lifestyle is taking a toll on me poor old soul. Anyway i believe some explanations are in order.
Grace ah, ok, why one and half years? because,
1) i graduate next may 2006
2) start my first month of pupilage in june, till july.
3) July to dec 2006, will be doing my PLC (practice law course), then ill sit for my Bar exams in Dec 2006
4) Jan -May 2007, ill cont on with my pupilage, then get called to the Bar, and get my practicing cert. then i get to finally become a real lawyer.

Haha. ok

Today we threw a little luncheon for my grandma (jane) at Big Fish in siglap. Erm, may i just say that
THE PLACE IS AWESOME!! yes. the food is really really really good. realllly yummilicious and because i m not an aspiring food critic i shall not attempt to describe the gastronomical delights that my digestive system was exposed to today. a lovely fruity white was on the house, and i think melvin got a bit tipsy, he assented to playing dumb action games with my little cousins. something he would not have done somber. HAHA.

i also how no idea how come i started blogging again. i was thinking of closing down the blog since i dont write much, but whilst taking a shower i had an ephiphany. (as where most of my deepest cheemest thoughts are carefully percolated)

i decided that, ill never close this blog/lj down. for uber simple reasons.
1) it's free
2) its nice to have a place to come to to rant without spilling ink
3) it's perfectly fine if i decide to go on a hiatus for 3 years. im not xiaxue, i dont have obligations. (and personally if not for the fact that she earns moolah from her blog, i dont think she has an obligation to write either)
4) i can choose when i want to write and anytime and any place. that has internet connection lah.
5) i'll never know when i feel like blogging.

ok, back to work for me now. i think i prob wont be around for sometime. i fig ill be bee-ishly busy after the exams!! sooooooooooo much that i want to do. Night!

PS: Happy birthdays are in order: Soojin!!

estheryang @ 2005-11-27T01:17:00

2005-11-26T17:27:12Z

so anyway i'm 2 exams down and one more to go.
the past 2 weeks have been... MADNESS, bananeric (its not a word by the way) madness.
last week i never sleep properly cos i wouldnt have been able to finish the syllabus.
anyway im studying for my last exam now and im losing steam. its just so boring. let me tell you what its about then you will empathize with me. its about Loans, shares, securities and other banking/debt instruments. haha so now, if you guys ever want to take a loan from friend/bank/financial company/etc. can come to me. I can advise you liao. I is going to be real lawyer in about one and half years time. HA!

here's an excerpt of what i have to read/learn/study/understand. the end of the sentences are as elusive as a rainbow's end. yuks.

Priority of debts
90. —(1) Subject to this Act, in the distribution of the property of a bankrupt, there shall be paid in priority to all other debts —
(a) firstly, the costs and expenses of administration or otherwise incurred by the Official Assignee and the costs of the petitioner (whether taxed or agreed) and the costs and expenses properly incurred by a nominee in respect of the administration of any voluntary arrangement under Part V;
(b) secondly, subject to subsection (2), all wages or salary (whether or not earned wholly or in part by way of commission) including any amount payable by way of allowance or reimbursement under any contract of employment or award or agreement regulating the conditions of employment of any employee;
(c) thirdly, subject to subsection (2), the amount due to an employee as a retrenchment benefit or an ex gratia payment under any contract of employment or award or agreement that regulates the conditions of employment, whether such amount becomes payable before, on or after the date of the bankruptcy order;
(d) fourthly, all amounts due in respect of any workmen’s compensation under the Workmen’s Compensation Act (Cap. 354) accrued before, on or after the date of the bankruptcy order;
(e) fifthly, all amounts due in respect of contributions payable during the 12 months immediately before, on or after the date of the bankruptcy order by the bankrupt as the employer of any person under any written law relating to employees’ superannuation or provident funds or under any scheme of superannuation which is an approved scheme under the Income Tax Act (Cap. 134);
(f) sixthly, all remuneration payable to any employee in respect of vacation leave, or in the case of his death, to any other person in his right, accrued in respect of any period before, on or after the date of the bankruptcy order; and
(g) seventhly, the amount of all taxes assessed and any goods and services tax due under any written law before the date of the bankruptcy order or assessed at any time before the time fixed for the proving of debts has expired.
(2) The amount payable under subsection (1) (b) and (c) shall not exceed an amount that is equivalent to 5 months’ salary whether for time or piecework in respect of services rendered by any employee to the bankrupt or $7,500, whichever is the less.
(3) The Minister may, by order published in the Gazette, amend subsection (2) by varying the amount specified in that subsection as the maximum amount payable under subsection (1) (b) and (c).
(4) For the purposes of subsection (1) (b) and (c) —
"employee" means a person who has entered into or works under a contract of service with the bankrupt and includes a subcontractor of labour;
"wages or salary" includes —
(a) all arrears of money due to a subcontractor of labour;
(b) any amount payable to an employee on account of wages or salary during a period of notice of termination of employment or in lieu of notice of such termination, as the case may be, whether such amount becomes payable before, on or after the date of the bankruptcy order; and
(c) any amount payable to an employee, on termination of his employment, as a gratuity under any contract of employment, or under any award or agreement that regulates the conditions of his employment, whether such amount becomes payable before, on or after the date of the bankruptcy order.
(5) For the purposes of subsection (1) (c) —
"ex gratia payment" means the amount payable to an employee on the bankruptcy of his employer or on the termination of his service by his employer on the ground of redundancy or by reason of any re-organisation of the employer, profession, business, trade or work, and “the amount payable to an employee” for these purposes means the amount stipulated in any contract of employment, award or agreement, as the case may be;
"retrenchment benefit" means the amount payable to an employee on the bankruptcy of his employer, on the termination of his service by his employer on the ground of redundancy or by reason of any re-organisation of the employer, profession, business, trade or work, and “the amount payable to an employee” for these purposes means the amount stipulated in any contract of employment, award or agreement, as the case may be, or if no amount is stipulated therein, such amount as is stipulated by the Commissioner for Labour.
(6) The debts in each class specified in subsection (1) shall rank in the order therein specified but debts of the same class shall rank equally between themselves, and shall be paid in full, unless the property of the bankrupt is insufficient to meet them, in which case they shall abate in equal proportions between themselves.
(7) Where any payment has been made to any employee of the bankrupt on account of wages, salary or vacation leave out of money advanced by a person for that purpose, the person by whom the money was advanced shall, in a bankruptcy, have a right of priority in respect of the money so advanced and paid, up to the amount by which the sum in respect of which the employee would have been entitled to priority in the bankruptcy has been diminished by reason of the payment, and shall have the same right of priority in respect of that amount as the employee would have had if the payment had not been made.
(8) Where any creditor has given any indemnity or made any payment of moneys by virtue of which any asset of the bankrupt has been recovered, protected or preserved, the court may make such order as it thinks just with respect to the distribution of such asset with a view to giving that creditor an advantage over other creditors in consideration of the risks run by him in so doing.
(9) Where an interim receiver has been appointed under section 73 before the making of the bankruptcy order, the date of the appointment shall, for the purposes of this section, be deemed to be the date of the bankruptcy order.

Pls feel sorry for me. :(

estheryang @ 2005-11-09T11:38:00

2005-11-09T03:47:51Z

hullo all

been a million years since l last posted.
the sem is drawing to a close.
i have too much to study for
im looking forward to next sem
im joined a chinese song writing competition organised by KE hall. ahahha
i now listen to jiu san san = 93.3 fm
cos i must improve my chinese
my hair is now longer.duh
i can tie pony tail without pins
i also have an oral exam today.
An assessed negotiation for me fake client
i went to shanghai 2 weeks ago
with my mother
was very fun because its shopping paradise
but we tailored mostly
im also going to be very broke at the end of this month
im going to watch 3 productions
Lao Jiu
Sleeping Beauty
Rent
the last one cost a bomb.
but i cannot dont watch
i listened to the CD about 1000 times
its so amazingly written
anyway be bought the best seats for that one
because no point gng to watch and not being able to see anything

ok those were the superficial updates. haha or like a quarter of them

i have to go and get ready for my assessed Negotiations. roar

Word of the Day: Traction

2005-08-27T14:48:00Z

i need traction
i need to get a grip
less than 2 weeks to opening nite and there's so much stuff to do!
being running on less than 6 hours of sleep every day
apparently if you dont make up for the deficiency within a week, its lost FOREVER. eeps
but, hoving said that, i feel good. i feel fine. i feel new. i feel ambitious. i feel determined. i feel hopeful.

My parents are very cute. At this very moment, my dad, sis and mom are watching tv outside my room. i think its a thriller or something because something exciting just happened and my parents were running a live commentary throughout the whole 5 minutes.

Mom: "Aiyah stupid man! stupid man! why he never take his handfone! why never call police!"
pa: "last time where got handfone?"
Mom: "but he's so rich!"
pa: " 0_o "
sis: " SHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!"
(all the while imagine surmounting, swelling thriller music)
mind you my door is closed.

am feeling bemused.

unsleeping and untired

2005-08-01T19:35:08Z

my brain is spinning at 316am. i am unsleeping and untired. so many ideas and thoughts are rushing through my head. i cant contain it, them whatever.

i think ive become a different person. i feel so changed. i dont know why. dont ask me if its for the better or for the worse. i cant tell you, you tell me. all i know is that something has changed inside me. almost like i finally realised who i am or what i am eventually going to become. almost like i know that it is possible to soar to the heights that ive always dreamt of reaching. almost like finding that tune that you've been waiting your whole life to write. almost like eating a meal that you know is gng to be one of the best meals of your life. almost like finding a Great love and knowing that he's the one you want to be the right one for. almost like creating something and knowing that this is just the beginning of your craft/artistry. i keep shaking my head inside cos i just cant believe that its possible to feel this way. like im going to burst, like i never want to lead a mundane life again, like im standing on the edge of a cliff ready to plunge.

Daddy God, what is going on?

im not confused, im not scared, im not even emotional. im just changed and i'd like to be able to put a finger on the change.